Unrealistic standards

Everyone has their flaws. Some more significant or obvious than others. I think my biggest flaw in my insecurity. I don't know if it's necessarily low self esteem, but that's probably what it is. I'd just rather not admit to it. insecurity sounds better to me for whatever reason. But it's not like it's even my fault. How can you feel good about yourself when you can't turn on the TV or even flip through your favorite girly magazine, without seeing amazingly beautiful girls?

It's not like I think I'm completely unfortunate looking. I'm decent, but I'm definitely one of those girls who looks through the magazines and instantly feels worthless. I'll watch the victoria's secret fashion show and instantly feel the desire to boycott food for a month. All those gorgeous, skinny, tall girls. And then I look at myself and think...well, my butt could be a little less massive, my boobs could stand to be a little bigger, and this fat I have on my sides here, I could do without that. My hair has too many split ends, my nose is a little too big. I wish I was a few inches taller, and why couldn't I have brown eyes, instead of blue?

I've come to terms with the fact that I'll never look like a girl in a magazine. I can't compete with movie stars, models or porn stars (even though I'm pretty sure I wouldn't want to with the latter). Guys are just exposed to so many beautiful women on a daily basis, it's not fair. How am I supposed to even begin to feel attractive when I know my boyfriend turns on the tv or goes on the computer and within minutes probably sees a couple dozen girls a million times better looking than me?

The world is a messed up place. It's like the media industry's goal is to make girls feel like shit about themselves, and it's working. Why do we have to put so much makeup on models and airbrush them to unrealistic standards. Why can't men just be happy with how women actually look. For example, Victoria's Secret supermodel, Adrianna Lima, is probably one of the most desired women in the world. But, do you know what she looks like without all of her makeup artists and hairstylists?

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I just have to keep reminding myself if I had personal trainers, a makeup artist, a hair stylist, and tons of money to spend on amazing clothes, I'd probably look good too. Too bad the male population doesn't realize that those girls they wish their girlfriends looked like, aren't as different from their girlfriends as they thought.