First blog

So, at the recommendation of someone, i decided i would make a blog. I used to have one of these when i was in middle school. Actually, i still have it. I can't stand to part with it. It has over 500 entries in it. Granted, not all of them are actual entries, I would put in a lot of poems and song lyrics and things like that, but the majority of them are. Its kind of nice to be able to go back and see what i was thinking back then and remember things that happened in my life that i probably never would have remembered if i didn't read about it on there.

But anyway, I'm currently a newfound single in the dating world. Well... I guess newfound isn't appropriate to say, its been about 5 months now--which is almost 6 months--which is almost half a year, which i guess wouldn't be considered "newfound." But I guess the truth of the matter is, for me it is a newfound single-ness considering I haven't been single since...oh the 8th grade? At least, I haven't been single for more than a month since then, and lets be honest, a month isn't much time to experience the single life.

So here I am, being single and all of that and I'm not sure yet if I like it or not. Its kind of nice to not worry about anyone except myself for once, because in my last relationship I feel like i did a lot of catering to him and I didn't really think much about what I wanted.

However, while I like being able to just be concerned about myself for once, I miss being connected to someone in that kind of way. Being in love with someone is just an amazing thing. And i know this is a weird analogy, but you know how they say mother's always forget about the pain of childbirth and only remember the good moments, so they want to have more kids? Well... I think love is kind of the same way, no matter how many times you get hurt and your heart gets broken, you still want to do it again. Granted, after being hurt you may be a little more precautious, which is how I'm feeling.

I'm really hesitant to falling in love again. If it were to happen right now, I'd really need a guy to absolutely wow me, sweep me off my feet. You know? Because after getting hurt like I was, I need to know a guy is worth it because if I'm going to put myself in the position to get hurt again, I better be confident that he's worth it, which I don't think is too much to ask.

And yet again I've written way too much. I'm sorry, get used to it. I don't think I'm capable of writing anything that isn't painfully long. haha.Well, I guess we'll see how this blog thing goes. I'll try to write again soon.